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My heart's not for two
My heart's not for two
What makes me look at you?
I tried the other way...
but my decisions I keep at bay...
"Lord make me pure...
...but not yet."
Have you ever found yourself going back to zero when you're just two steps away from the finish line? It happens in Snakes and Ladders... Just when I thought the game will be over soon, I cascade back and have to run the path again...
and life... One day, the Lord leads me to taste heavenly joys and delights. I feel high! I see everything through rose-colored glasses. And then the next day, I slip back into my old self and I shrivel like a wilted flower in God's garden. I lose the spiritual fruits I have gathered. My soul is disturbed.
I have tried running away ~ I thought, 'could it be what I read? see? hear? taste and smell? touch?' ~ But the more I flee, the more it doubles its force to destroy the peace I have already built inside of me...
I have not fled so far,
but cooled it down...
I have ceased running
and started walking...
The Lord caught up with me and
I resolved to change...
I felt His mercy upon me...
(2 Cor. 12,9 NASB)
everything else faded away...
and
here I go again...
at the beginning
right from where I started.
"Go on, O lord, and act: stir us up and call us back; inflame us and draw us to Thee;
stir us up and grow sweet to us;
let us now love Thee;
let us run to Thee..."
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Updates:
I was reading Catholic Exchange today and realized that it's St. Monica's feast. The Church celebrates her son, St. Augustine, tomorrow, 28 August.
Synced with the Spirit today...
Updates:
I was reading Catholic Exchange today and realized that it's St. Monica's feast. The Church celebrates her son, St. Augustine, tomorrow, 28 August.
Synced with the Spirit today...
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29 August 2012: While reflecting on Rimly's comment, I was reminded of the Interior Castle by St. Teresa of Avila ~ for further reading, here's the reference: INTERIOR CASTLE
29 August 2012: While reflecting on Rimly's comment, I was reminded of the Interior Castle by St. Teresa of Avila ~ for further reading, here's the reference: INTERIOR CASTLE
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28 September 2012
28 September 2012
I ask You: "How many times will You pick me up,
When I keep on letting You down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
How far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer: "My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."
~ Grace Lyrics by Laura Story~
And you answer: "My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."
~ Grace Lyrics by Laura Story~