As of late, some friends have been asking me WHERE I am... HOW I am doing...WHAT I am doing...
The month of March is marked by several transitions: seasons change from winter to spring; my youngest sister's goes to Europe to seek her future; the child I used to carry graduated and aced to kindergarten; my Saturdates now go to Mass by themselves; and work just keeps on moving to another level...
I asked myself several times if I were doing the same ~ Is there growth on my part? Am I facing the risks of uncertainty? Am I progressing in my inner spiritual battles?
Am I growing deeper in my relationship with myself? others? God?
After I came back home from helping out in the convention last week, I crawled on my bed and just slept for days...no, it's not the busyness that keeps me from writing or reading... it's this gnawing ache inside that eats up my attention ... I'm giving myself ALL away... And I feel scared...
A news I received weeks ago regarding work changed my insights. It was a little quake that shook me...It was the same feeling I had when I decided to switch lifestyle five years ago... The thought of losing a job for lack of support from other countries crushed my heart. We had worked our way to elevating our journal's status...
Then, God surprised us with several good researches at the end of the month ~ enough to keep our journal going (I thank my dear friend Martha who has been constantly praying with me)...
Most people I know go for 'stability' at work ~ a regular pay and assured salary every month. Even my cousin couldn't think of giving up her position for a higher one...I'd often hear her say, "Let me be..." but when asked, "Are you happy?" That mutes other questions...
I guess, these constant pricks I receive are actually catalysts that hasten my adrenalines to act accordingly to situations (Again, I am grateful to Aaron who shared his ebook with me)...
And know what? With every situation I face, I might 'not always' be prepared but...
~ quote from The Odd Life of Timothy Green
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